Voice Note — 7:39 AM
[BLANK_AUDIO] Okay, where are we, Tuesday, Wednesday morning? [BLANK_AUDIO] So yesterday, I sent all my obsidian nodes into Claude AI. And said, what does it all mean? There’s so much in there, all these various people I’ve read about and transcribed, all these websites that I’ve ploughed through and summarized. Everything has been into the notes. We had a lot of organization just on this big umbrella called well-being. And there’s a lot of good stuff in there. A lot of stuff that made me think, oh, that’s amazing. And the problem with obsidian is always it’s a great storage device. It’s not great at pulling stuff out, making links. So I asked AI to do that. So Claude often did that and came back and said, okay, here’s some themes that I see consistently through all the stuff that you store away. And it was really good, actually, because it did summarizing very well. Okay, these are obviously the things that attract me, even if I was unaware myself and yeah, so I’m going to have to plough through the document that he then created to say, well, here’s this stuff and here’s the links that justify why I put these threads in and there’s a lot in there. Bit scary actually, but I will go through it because it’s, will be a key to making sense out of all the things, the directions I said to be going in. But, but I’m all too conscious that I’m way into the left brain on this one. That thriving growth, all the rest of it can’t just be an exercise in thinking, in intellectualizing and reading wise people and all this other stuff. That at some point, and I think it’s got to be nowish. I’ve got to sit back and let the right brain do a while, do a bit of work. Sit back and stop trying to intellectualize my way to a better place. And I need to learn to shut down that side and just get into my right brain. And ironically, a lot of that comes out of the, all the stuff I just wrote, because that is part of the things I’m concerned with, have been concerned with for months, how do you do that? And it is in there. Oh, hello cat. Yes, there’s a cat. Hello cat. Are you happy now? Yeah. So maybe that’s the thread I should be following ironically. So try and intellectualize your way into non-intellectualizing. Um, especially having just read the, um, uh, long article from David Brooks on the, in the Atlantic, who really does dive in deep into this stuff. He’s very clever, man. Don’t always agree, but he’s a very clever man, but interviewing an author. Um, what’s his name? I write a book called the permanent questions. And he’s, they wrote a book called that, what’s it called? Anyway, he interviewed him and it was a long old article. Very clever, but wow. I felt spiritually poor in comparison to what these guys do and how they make sense of that whole right brain thing, the whole soul issue, the whole experience issue, sensations, all the rest of it. Um, so it was a bit daunting at first, but then I read, sorry, another real, this girl I follow, he said, look, the only way you grow is to be on the edges of who you are, to be on the uncomfortable bits where you just don’t quite understand or you’re being challenged or your own beliefs and all the rest of, um, that in the middle of your intellectual safe place is not where you grow. You need to be on the edges and, oh, I don’t understand that. Oh, what’s going on there. But it’s uncomfortable. So maybe the universe shoving all the stuff in front of me to say there’s a way forward. Okay. You’re faffing around a bit at the moment. Yes, everything takes time and yes, you can’t rush it, but here’s a probable direction to follow. And especially with two weights clear with these overseas. Interesting stuff. Okay.