Voice Note — 7:30 AM
Okay, thank you about fear this morning. So I’m looking forward to writing. I like writing. I enjoy writing. I seem to write okay, but I can’t get off my ass to do it. Even when conditions are perfect. I’ve even made it so easy now. I figured out how to do recordings like this straight onto obsidian. All the obstacles are out. There’s only psychological remaining. What’s going on? Okay, what’s the fear? All right. Major fear in my life has been embarrassment. Being less and look down upon. And maybe that’s that. I can, I think, go into this writing idea and say, well, it’s never going to be at red. So it doesn’t matter. I think I’ll probably will go that way at least initially. And it’s easy to do that. It’s easy to ensure it’s never read again. At least in my mind. So that’s not it. So what other fears are there? I’ve got to look into this fear thing. There’s plenty of fears out there and they do hold me back. But I haven’t labeled them properly yet. It certainly comes out with relationships and with other people outside of my immediate circle. Very hard to examine what’s going on there.