Ok Refresh time. I lost the thread a bit last week. I felt down and anxious. Part of it is, and remains, mysterious. Maybe a physical thing (lots of diarrhoea) affecting the mind. But at least part of it was an understanding that I’m not where I should be (could be?). Zee has said I’m asking too much of myself, expecting to have my new drastically changed life stable so quickly. There’s some truth in that. But reading the wise men lately, there’s a recurrent theme of letting go of past patterns that don’t work any more. I’m not sure how to manifest that. Which patterns? There’s a particular danger when I’m surrounded by people who really love me and tell me how “good” I am. It’s especially dangerous with Barb on the fringes, with the same people disliking so many of her recent stressed patterns. Zee says that the universe drops people into our lives as part of our life education. I’m not sure about Barb right now, but maybe in the future!
So i’m debating whether I need to focus hard on life improvement, or whether I need to sit back a little, read, contemplate and listen more. It’s not intuitive to my engineering mind. “Got a problem? Address the causes, then apply resources to fix it!”. It’s probably one of those whole “B” things again. Balance can be so unsatisfying when you’re searching for binary answers with quick results.
Ooo a new autocorrect on Obsidian. It’s very good. No more correcting “Teh”!